HOMME SANCTUARIO

As Long as youre There..

2011-08-06T00:29:00.000+08:00

A nice show stopping number from charice...kinda echoes what I have inside as well...Enjoy!!!

More of Alexis fabregas

2011-04-10T04:23:00.001+08:00

More of the guy behind the Super Mario scandal photos

Para sa Yo

2011-04-10T03:09:00.000+08:00

This is not a saccharine laden input but rather the opposite so kung medyo inaakala mo na sweet ang entry na to...nagkakamali ka!!!(kontrabida laugh).

Para to sa mga taong nagmarka ang presence sa buhay mo...ngunit hindi sa magandang paraan..and Im sure in one way or another makakarelate ka dito...

So, ready ka na teh? eto na ang mga hayup...

1. Para sa gradeschool mong friend na mabait lamang habang nakakakuha ng sagot sa test sa iyo at pagkatapos ay parang hindi ka na kilala at worse, hindi nagpapakopya pag alam na nya ang sagot - Sino ngayon ang mas maganda sa atin?...at mas mayaman?...nagpapadiamond peel ka na...sya? hanggang maxi peel no.4 pa rin. hahaha!!!

2. Para sa muse ng class nyo na namimili ng kaibigan at ayaw tumabi sa iyo dahil feeling niya hindi kayo of the same level...- tama nga naman...siya kasi dalawa na anak ngayon at umaasa lang sa asawa, habang ikaw every T TH S may appointment sa personal mong fitness instructor sa slimmers world.

3.Para sa crush mong nag turn down sa yo dahil mas gusto nya ang seatmate mo...- magsama sila ngayon sa probinsya habang nag hohouse warming ka sa bago mong condominium.

4. Sa teacher mong namalo at nagsabing wala kang mararating dahil sa katigasan ng ulo mo...- Hwag ka nang magtanim ng sama ng loob...Ipagpasa Diyos mo na lang tutal andun na sya sa ilalim ng lupa at may acquaintance party sila ng mga uod.Hwag kalimutang duraan ang kanyang puntod.

5.Para sa tsismosa mong kapitbahay na walang ginawa kungdi ang magkalat ng kwentong hindi totoo tungkol sa yo - kaawaan mo na lang sya tutal yun lang ang ginagawa nya habang nagtitinda ng kamote que habang ikaw naman ay nagla lunch sa Le souffle.

6. Para sa matapobre mong ka classmate na nagsabing hindi ka nya pwedeng maging kaibigan dahil dukha ka... - wag ka nang magtanim ng sama ng loob.sampalin mo na lang ng Hermes Kelly Bag mo sa mukha tutal matagal na nyang dinadasal na magkaroon nun eh.

7. AT....para sa ex mong walang kwenta na ipinagpalit ka sa kung sino sino lang dyan...- hwag magtanim ng sama ng loob at bagkus ay maging masaya...biruin mo ...makakapasok ka na sa mga lugar na may karatulang 'NO PETS ALLOWED' Pak!!!

at sa the rest na hindi nabanggit at hindi naman worth it....ito lang ang bibitiwan mong salita... 'o tangina nyo...andito ako ngayon kasama ng mga pangarap ko..asan kayo ngayon???'

Sleeping Beauty

2011-04-10T02:28:00.000+08:00

who wouldnt want to be his sleeping buddy?...a nice sleeping asian boy for you...

Happy Sunday!

2011-04-10T02:23:00.001+08:00

some more guys to quench your voyeuristic tendencies...enjoy!

2011-04-10T02:19:00.000+08:00

Some guys to tide you over the weekend....Happy sunday!!!

The Super Mario Photos

2011-04-05T13:02:00.004+08:00

This is the alleged Super Mario Scandal photos by no less than alexis fabregas. If you were to ask me..there's not much shown in the pics.Just a shaved pubes thats all but nevertheless entertaining.Now you can imagine being super mario with much gusto! hahaha!

New Beginnings

2011-03-21T03:36:00.004+08:00

hey,,,its been a while...got so busy with so many things and now I feel like I owe you guys to put this thoughts here...

I resigned from my recent work...yep.for the longest time.I know its a cyclical thing but what would ou do if the health benefits are fucked up?you cant add any dependent? One of my major drive is the health benefits that i can get for my parents...sad to say they dont have it so against my better judgement, I have to say goodbyeto them.

I made new friends and one female friend has what we call 'toxic' environment...everything around here is screwed up...her husband,her pseudo firends and all...I didnt realize that one person could have so much toxicity in her life...dont get me wrong,shes my friend.Its just that she kinda drains all the happiness around you when you give her an advice.Problems never stop I know..but all at once? you gotta be kidding me...

I tried to put a lil bit distance or space between me and her so as not for me to shrivel up and die..heheh.It may not be the wisest decision I could ever come up with but desperate measures needs desperate action.

im a ertified bum for now but will bounce back in the corporate world next month...have bills to pay and a self to overhaul..heheh.

Its not the usual blog you read I know..and Ill try to fire you up sooner but for now,let my thoughts take centerstage.thanks.

Chinese Hunk

2011-01-30T03:10:00.003+08:00

Some chinese guy from webcam..Enjoy!!!

The Last Stallion

2011-01-30T02:34:00.003+08:00

I moved out from that legendary boys dormitory much to chagrin of my friends mainly because of change of workplace but...I didnt go out without a bang...

here's the story...

Ive met joseph there...an 18 year old new roomate on the left side wing of the dormitory...a cute 5'10 fair buff chinito guy due to his thai genes.he is half thai,half fil.
the guy's kinda new in manila so hes asking things like directions etc.He will or i think he is now working as a barista of starbucks...

I was alone in my room when he knocked asking if I have some liniment since hes having a muscleache at the back due to lifting weights.I gave him the liniment and gave him some tips on weightliftin since i am a weightlifter as well.We started talkin about different topics and just plain got comfortable with each other...

and then the inevitable came..

He asked me If i can give him a massage at the back since his arms arent that flexible because of the ache.I gave in and massaged him.
he stripped down to his sheer briefs and then lay on his stomach.I applied the vanilla oil and start kneading the muscles...I made sure that it was sensual yet firm so as to stimulate the bloodflow...and from there.all that you can hear from the room are sighs of contentment as each muscle relaxed...

and then he turned over...

I found myself staring to I think almost an 8 incher,uniform in girth and drooling with pre cum...
He then asked me to sucked him.Hes been feeling horny since the first massage and he couldnt contain it anymore...

I knew what i had to do...

I had him straddled on the bed and kissed his inner thighs..licking my way up to his groin and balls....reaching his tiny ass and licking it slowly...sending him to soft moans and back arching...

and then I rimmed him full blast...

This is where his legs got entwined and headlocked my head as I probed my tongue deeper into his ass...me licking and rotating my licker inside his crack and him,grinding his hips up and down for friction..it was sheer pleasure...

then for the final assault...

I lay on the bed and let him facefuck me...with gradual slow pumping and progressing to massive hip slapping agains my lips...what astounded me was the words I heard while hes pumping me....

' Tangina,mas masarap ka pa sa girlfriend ko tosh...Fuuucckkkk!!!'

I knew he was about to exploded when he started grunting and panting...I hold his hips and helped him pump my lips...

' Oh fuck...here i cummmm...tangina moooo!!!!'

...with one strong pump...His cum spurted and squirted on my lips....tasting semi sweet as the kid dont have any vices...the cum overflowed..i wasnt expecting that many so it oozed to the sides of my lips as he slowly pump me....

When he regained his sanity...he told me that it was the best BJ he had and truth be told...I was the first male who sucked him...and he doesnt think that hell have another one from the same sex anymore unless its me..he had his first from the best and he wanted it to be just like that... =)

PS Hes still textin me...and we will meet next week.

LateBloomer

2010-07-25T01:38:00.002+08:00

Theres something in being a latebloomer...like a sweet vengeance.When I browsed on other networking sites that I have and checked my highschool friends, I just cant believe that they have aged this fast! ...especially those who are hunks and babes during our acne years...

They are just...er...has beens...

while Im reapin the fruits of my success...

Thanks for choosing the right moisturizers (LOL)

Its just that when they were the 'IT' people during our teen years and us,being the commomers..It never occured to me that I could be this more...well,Im not perfect...But Im waaay hotter that the campus crush back then...heheheh

Destiny...indeed has its way of giving you what youve missed...

...Just a sweet reminiscing.... =)

That skin head guy...

2010-07-01T00:43:00.004+08:00

It was just a usual late night clock out from work..nonchalantly walking towards my boarding house,minding my own thing when this thing happened...

a block on my street I spotted this skin head guy...just standing and I guess trying to make a call..But to my suprise as soon as I approach the sidewalk he's in...he smiled.

I thought he finally got connected to the person hes trying to reach so I just passed by.I was suprised that he said 'hey'. I looked back and he asked...'u going home?' Before answering,I gave him a once over...(checked him out closely)

the guy's around 5'10 skinhead,tanned and buff.smiling eyes and welcoming lips.

NICE.

Then I said yes.

He asked me If he can join me...just accompany me on my way home. I asked frankly 'What do you want dude?' but was even more suprised on what he blurted out.

'dude im horny and I dont usually do this but I need a release...Im just from the street adjacent to yours so dont worry.I aint no bad guy...'

Well,judging from his basketball shorts,tight fit black tank top...it could go no wrong.

So off we went to my boarding house...

I sneaked him in the cr and there...in the lavatory he leaned..exposing his already hard cock.

'suck me..and suck it deep...'he whispered.

Pulling his shorts to his ankles along with his t-back (gasp!) ,I started licking his 7 inch shaft...I ususally have a 7 or 6 inch on the guys I encounter but his is different...It is REALLY FAT...with veins all over...reddish and throbbing from all the things that my lips would give.

I knew from then that I have to deep throat him...

He sensually pump his cock against my lips..simulating the slow fuck...my lips widening and adjusting to this freakin toy candy and saliva oozing from the corners of my mouth..making it all sensual with the slurp-slurp sound andslippery.

Then he gently held my head...all I thought was I was in for some slow mouth fuck...

FUCKIN WRONG.

He just gauged my head for some slamming of his dick in my lips...I gagged for a second...suprised for the unwanted preassure of cock sliding inside my throat but it only took me just that tyhen i recovered..I held his butt instinctively...and did my thing.

MY TURN.

I slammed my lips against his cock while milking it furiously ...sending him to spasms along with that heavy moaning- not caring if anybody would hear him.
I didnt care at that time anymore if somebody would hear us...I was too busy deepthroating him and ramming my lips against his throbbing cock...

Then I felt he'll come soon...His hot cock got stiffer..larger...and more wild inside my slippery lips...

I usually have the urge to pull my lips out and let the guy come in the open but this is a different story...I continued milking his cock till it exploded in my mouth...hot cum juice filling my mouth but not reaching my throat ( you have to be an expert to do this...=) and sending him in thrusting spasms and heavy panting.

I gurgled and cleaned my mouth afterwards while he tidy himself...Afterwards to my suprise he asked for my number...and kissed me in the cheek...

'im just on the other street...lemme know if you want another one...'

and then off he went home.

...We already had two fuck/suck session at the time of this writing...

=)

Three's a company

2010-06-15T21:41:00.009+08:00

Another Boarding house story which happened just last night...jeeez,seems like therell be no end on the encounters in this male boarding haus... haha.

A med tech from makati med rented the other room 2 months ago and it was just last night that I was able to talk to him..chat and all. Hes nice. A bit moreno and swimmer body type,standing 5'8 tall. his name is Chuck.

Chuck out of the blue asked me if my roomate is a bi...I was flabbegasted.I nonchalantly asked why.Turns out to be that my roomate(Mark) has been giving him the come hither look. Well,since the flirting already have started without me knowing it,I already gave him my two cents on my roomate. I told chuck that I sucked him once ...'twas just one sucking session and since were of different schedules,that never happened again.

...To my suprised, the bitch's face lightened like a bulb...

' Oh so its ok to suck him?' he asked..
' Well,if hes giving you the stare...then go for the kill...' I said.

'Aight...' he smiled. like a fuckin cat who just swallowed a bird.

Im feeling a bit sleepy and bid him goodbye.When I entered the room,Mark's just about to take his shower...and went down to the guys communal shower. I texted Chuck right away....

'Hey,mark wnt dwn alrdy n d cr...GO!' was my text.

Around 30 mins or so...I felt hot so I decided to take a shower in the upper Bathroom ( it has a bubble tub)...And when I was about to enter...someone brushed my bare back with a wet towel...

Chuck.

'What happened?,How did it go?' I asked.

He told me that he sucked him in the shower and face fucked him...and after Mark came, he just took the shower without saying any word...leaving Chuck panting and having a case of blue balls because he didnt came.

' I need to masturbate...Id go berserk if I cant explode....dammit!' he said..

I said 'ok'. and then went ahead...

I was in the shower when someone knocked....I opened to check who it was and I saw chuck...still naked and with just a towel around his torso.

'mind if I join you...?' he asked.

'mmmm...ok' I said...thinking that he had spurted his load already and was just up for plain washing...

...FUCKING WRONG.

As soon as he got in the shower...he kissed me...kissed me so hard that I thought I was being smooched by a porn star...And he groping my left nipples and massaging my buttcrack in the other hand...

And then I saw his boner...

His is not that long...around 6 inches but Ill be damned...have you ever seen a baby missile? thats how his dick looks like.small head ,huge shaft..veins and all...
He straddled me standing and knelt behind me and started tongue fucking me...darting in and out....and I for the life of me...am so lost...lost in sheer pleasure and lust...Were moaning like newlyweds...

..and then he said..'Let me drill your bubblebutt sweetheart..' He started kissing me from the back while he slowly drill his juicy cock back and forth....letting my anal walls relax and ajust on his biggie...i love the way he grins hi hips...while his cock rotated inside my man pussy...I swear i could feel some juices comin out....

And then he grabbed my hair and mounted me like a stag,slapping his sexy hips on my butt creating that sexy splok! splok! splok! sound...I in return milked his bazooka in rhythmic pumping...

His thrust grew deeper and the pumping grew stronger...and then he shouted..

' Tangina...eto nang tamod koooooo!!!'

and then he spurted on my back...hot come hit me even in the nape...thats was awesome...and whats more hot? He licked his come dry....

We showered together and dried ourselves...and when were about to go into each others room...Chuck said...

'Sarap mo tosh....next time uli ha'

... Nice =)

Twoo moon junction

2010-04-05T06:13:00.005+08:00

Another Boarding house stories...

This time it is between me and and my boardmate..a handsome chinito boardmate.Actually....my roomate.

You see,he was already in the room when I hauled my life in the dorm.The room's for 4 persons but that time hes the only one in it.Having the room for himself and occupying 3 cabinets(!) for his thingamajigs... I got to occupy one only.The upper deck of our beds remains empty up to this day( anyone interested).

Marky never quite got the hang of having the room shared with someone so as a way of showing this...He ignores me...BIG TIME.Since December.I tried to befriend him,initiated a conversation gazillion times but was met with just a nod or a shake from him...

FINE.

I have gotten used to not talkin to my roomate.Sometimes its more of an advantage.I dont feel I have to ask how his day been if I see him after work hours...So it went on like this...

or so I thought...

There was this one night that were almost sleeping.Me in my bed and him in his.The night at that time was sooo humid...The freakin electric fan just wont do...we we sweating inside the room...moonlight from outside...I could see him getting restless...and me drowning in my sweat.

I could see him twisting in his bed then suddenly ..out of the blue he undressed,removed his sando.and inserted his hand inside his boxers...and when he removed it...the thing inside that pants is sooo hard..it would shame the flag pole.

I got aroused a bit but the humidity is getting the more of me...the electric fan is in between us...I went to adjust the bolt in the fan and placed my other hand in hid bed side for support...
Not thinking about anything but how can i dispell the fuckin humidity...

He then held my wrist....

I was suprised...i withdrew my hand thinking that he wouldnt want me to touch anything in his bed but he held on to my wrist...and then he said something that made my jaw dropped to the floor...

'Tosh...Bj mo ko...'

I was suprised that he knew my name..I mean we are not in speaking terms...but I was even more suprised when he guided my hand inside his shorts to feel his throbbing dick...slippery from containing his lust....

In one last straw of sanity..I managed to ask him again.. 'You sure?'

he looked at me straight in the eye and said...

'Tosh please...help me ....suck me dry please...'

Dammit....here goes nuthin...and I went for the kill.

I started suckin him gently but he insisted sitting in his bed...legs spawling and his dick throbbing and I kneeling in front of him..my head held by his hands as he slowly fuck my lips...

I was amazed...This guy has a super flawless complexion..pink dick and all...and when his dick started getting rockhard..I know it time to lollipop him ...my style.

I sucked him gently while rolling my tongue in his shaft and massaging his butt.Him complementing my suck with his gentle but deep thrust...i love the way his cock sliding in and out of my wet lips...

Few deepthroats and I felt him tensed. He was about to come....and with one sexy moan...he fucked my lips hard.....and thrust his hips so hard It left me no choice...

I fuckin swallowed his cum.

I dont usually do this but I was amazed how sweet his come were...and to my suprise,I licked him dry...

then we went to sleep.

It felt weird...we NEVER talked and here...the extreme happened...I just dont know whats gonna happen the next day..will it still be the same? would he talk to me nowI just dont know...

I woke up and saw him almost dressed and ready for work..I just looked at him and said...

'Siguro naman,kakausapin mo na ako...'

He just continued packin his bag and ignored me.

OK....FINE

but when he was about to leave the room..he looked at me with his chinito eyes and he said something...

'Tosh ...thanks...'

and he smiled and winked at me before closing our door.

I LIKE MY ROOM BETTER NOW... =)

The Red Shoe Quickies...

2010-03-14T17:46:00.005+08:00

This happened last friday....And boy! was I suprised!!!

You see,Im in an exclusive boys boarding house...And you get to be surrounded by dozens of guys 24/7. Imagine 5 floors full of guys everyday and you get the picture.

Im staying in the 3rd floor.Well, to cut the story short...The buff guy Ive been crushing on in the 2nd floor went up to my floor. At that time I was on my way to work...we almost collided in the receiving area.He smiled at me and asked If I can give him a quick massage.Thinking that I still have 3 hours to kill..I nodded and asked him where. He asked me if its ok in my room.Since my boardmate is not around,I said yes.Off we went.

...And I have a feeling that this is not just going to be 'just massage'.

Well...he lied down on my bed...removed his board shorts and kept his bikini brief on while I stood there trying to keep my sanity intact and my drool from fallin. You see I have a HUGE crush on this guy eversince we've met .Hes Buff, Chinito and hairy.36 years old and stands 6'1ht.One of the tallest guys in the boarding house.

...ok...back to my story...

He smiled and asked me to massage his body...Well,I was shaking while doing the massage because of his bautiful body.God!!! the muscles are all firm....he closed his eyes and moans occasionally when I hit some spots on his chest muscles.He seemed to relax...

...or so I thought...

When I was massaging his abs down to his legs...I started nocticing a huge bulge bumping my arm...I smiled and he was a bit emabrassed.He smiled sheepishly at me while apologizing.Saying that he cant control his hard on because my massage is just awesome...Well...I told him its normal...some guys get a hard on while being massaged.

He answered me back'...but not like this...'and pulled down his bikini brief.

I found myself staring at I tthink looks like a 6.5 huge cock with pre cum already ....His precum is starting to trickle down to his pubes....

He asked me...'please help me...Id go crazy if you not gonna blow me....'

...My sanity went flying out of the window with those mere words...

I started sucking him ...firm but gentle while licking his cock...He held my head and face fuck me in return...slowly moving his hips then gradually picking up the speed until he was slamming his cock in my face.....He was moaning like hell....

and then he groaned he was about to come...

With one thrust...he spurted the first on my mouth...I pulled it out and the cock spurted madly like some geyser...drenching my cheeks and his chest with sweetish cum....

After that I wiped him dry...and I went to clean my mouth...brushed and all.He fixed himself and then went towards me..and to my suprise...He kissed me sweetly...

He whispered something in my ear that sent my knees to jelly..

it went on like ' I love the way you did it...thanks...lets do this again...'

I stared at this hunk..while asking.... ' You sure...?'

He answered with a smile... ' Im all yours....blow me anytime you want...'

I FUCKIN LOVE MY DORM!!! =)

A Fiery Valentine

2010-02-15T00:23:00.004+08:00

...I thought my valentines day would go as usual...my partner has work.and Im hitting the gym in the afternoon.Im not sulking...I understand that we have to work...and this day would just pass as a regular sunday...

Boy,was I wrong...

I was busy coloring my hair in the 3rd floor of our boarding house when this hunky 5'10 guy went up to check his clothes in the rooftop...He said hi...The usual introduction.I went on coloring my hair and he went upstairs..

Did I mentioned that he has a close resemblance to Akihiro Sato?

...a moreno doppelganger of that oh-so-drool worthy model.Dammit.

But when he went down..I was suprised.He volunteered to color the hairs on the back part near the nape.I said ok..then he went to brush the hair.We were talking and just plain laughing.Like old friends...

well,thats what I thought...

As a goodwill gesture,since I still have some left on the tube.I asked him if he would want his hair colored as well...he smiled sweetly and said if its ok with me then he'll get the rest.Its ok. then we went to my room to finish his hair.

This guy was topless, and was just wearing his board shorts way down...enough for me to ogle at his treasure throve and his undies.I liked the color of his undies...it was electric blue and black combined. I asked him if he was wearing boxers...he said no and pulled down his shorts.

the bastard had the bulge the size of mini pistol.Gawd!.

Keeping my sanity intact,I said cool and went on coloring his hair...but he went on blabbing that he like his undies because its stretchable...so stretchable that he pulled the garter infront of me...enough for me to get a full view of his 8 inch huge dick inside and his trimmed pubes.

"well,thats huge and hard..." i went on...

" yeah...I hate it when its hard..wanna make it limp?" he asked smilingly.

Bullshit..this is it.I just had to suck it.

I dropped the tube and went on my knees to mouth fuck him....starting with soft sucking and licking then pounding my mouth against his thrusting hips...his pre cum and my saliva combined.

he started moaning as he grind his tool against my lips...and me sucking and milking him for all its worth...Shit! what a nice dick he has.So nice that I resurrect all the skills that I know in deepthroating 101. He was moaning and writhing with so much pleasure that Im slowly tasting small spurts of his cum...

I pulled his hard fuck tool outta my mouth and kissed him.He kissed me back passionately as if he my partner.

' now Im gonna fuck you like Im your boyfriend' He went on..

He had me on standing position. and licked my ass...it was fuckin good..his tongue and midle finger intertwiningly playing with my lovehole....

Then he slowly entered me...while kissing and playing with my left nipple....Tang-ina it was so good.The way he grinded and closed his muscular arms around me ...as he fuck me deepr each thrust...and me muscle milking him...

We can control it anymore..he pulled it out and cream on my chest...and it was a LOT!!! He then sucked me good....so good that I came in his mouth..and we kissed....my lips and his mixing with my cum.

It was fucking good...the downside was he gonna be back in cebu...hes training for Pharmaceutical company here...so we'll just be boardmates for 3 weeks.He told me that he wants to do it again ..many times while hes here...he was just a 2nd floor away.he kissed me and went downstairs to shower.I was in the bed...feeling sinful and satisfied.I know I cheated but my Bf has my heart...he just had my butt and dick.

...and 3 weeks with that Hunky boardmate?!! hhhmmmmnnn... This should be interesting..

Emotional Rantings

2010-02-07T16:26:00.003+08:00

2009 proved to be just a passing phase...so fast its just a like a breeze in summer.Fleeting.almost transparent...and there was me...

I never had the chance to grope that ever after last year...Im soo tired of one night wham bams.I guess there would really come a time in your life that you would look beyond what you see...Im in that stage and frankly it os frustrating.Frustrating that most of the people dont get you...andit seems a herculean task to find Mr. Right...what was I doing? was it wrong?...because everytime Im nearing that settling stage...everything turns kaputz! Im getting tired of this vicious cycle.

And I havent even mentioned the cellphone relationships...Fuck.

Im sooo damn tired of this whole thing.Not that im blaming the unlimited talk network coz in some ways ,it helped a lot in connecting. The thing is..the relationships over the phone is just as good as your battery. Picture this...you guys would talk over the phone...all cheesy and mushy...would pledge your whiney ass undying love...securing everything over words and then...you two would meet...and then what? BAM!!! ...

....emotional Chaos.Like you never knew each other...

Dont you just get tired of this?...I do. I am. And pissed....

Just when it is that you get to have Ever After? is it really just for those goodlooking assholes.Come to think of it...I can give more than they are capable.

I went to the gym before to get revenge....now its for the love of me.myself and I...

...and I think with this Im getting more sensible...

I may not have the ever after for now...but Im sure that whoever's gonna get my heart will surely be a lucky bastard.

He would have with him a sensible loving man..who has come to know what love truly is...

Bring it On !!!.... =)

Carpi Diem

2010-01-12T22:48:00.003+08:00

Life is really as fickleminded as the seasons...One time your healthy and the next time...you have a stage 4 cancer eating your life away...
One of my officemate was diagnosed to be having a stage 4 cancer on the muscles.This guy is really big and if your going to see him,hes unlikely to get that...hes big and burly but lo and behold...he had been diagnosed with this and getting treatment since last year.
Im not close to this guy but this made me think ...and reflect on how life is...and being thankful that I'm still here and enjoying life's gifts and suprises...

Miracles arent far behind...as long as you believe in it...Carpi diem!!!

Pandora's box 2009

2009-12-31T02:06:00.006+08:00

... Time really flies fast when your particularly apathetic about it.Well,I couldnt care less..but it seems that it was just yesterday when I got my first 2009 heartbreak circa January...and the things that made up my 2009 upon retrospect are worth visiting...here's some...

Same old shit..just new assholes to face.It never fails to amuse me how some people cant just accept that there are and there will always be people better than them. And there are still people who have grown physically but left their brains in their 3rd grade classrooms...and theres no way you can play Mother theresa to them.let them be...their happy being pathetic.

No matter how much and how deep you conceal yourself and your true nature...it will shine thru and this would come in the most awkward circumstances...

How many times I have promised not to fall again... and by some warped humor of Venus,finds myself entangled again with another guy..Whew,this is tiring.But an enjoyable ride.

If you really wanna do something...then dont just sit there and wonder what will be the outcome...By all means go get your ass and do it...so whatevers gonna be the result,you aint gonna be sittin wondrin what couldve been...

Dont be stingy about the things that you like...you owe it to yourself to be happy...and aim for the things that you really want and will make you really happy...

its ok to be different once in a while...but never try to change your identity...just complement it with these changes to bring out your individuality.

Fresh start...

2009-12-13T20:29:00.004+08:00

Im moving to a new place...make that a boarding house.to have a fresh start.As you all know,I had an unspoken riff with a flatmate and just the sight of him makes me cringe big time. Anyhow , I got a news from the grapevine saying that the bastard just got from a recollection.I was half expecting a pruned set of horns...but lo and behold...nuthing..not even one fuckin bit.Pompous as ever,he made sure that everyone knows that hes been thru a retreat by changing his wish list to a pocket bible while ignoring me...now,how pathetic is that?It amuses me big time.
New friend is moving in to the flat.We have been close but it was just last night that I was able to get a glimpse of her life...how its been.Tough as she is,its not all that.She,like me have been detoured for a while.In her I found symphaty..more like a kindred spirit.I guess losing a fake friend has its reward.I gained a new one.
One of his nonsense friend started talkin to me.I was glad coz at one point we got close but theres this new feeling in me.Like Id rather not have her close to me.We talk but I prefer to have my own space from now on...it is safe...for her sake that is...
The whirlwind that I have been tru proved to be a blessing in disguise.I was able to sort out who matters most in my life friendwise.It was hurtful at that time but I was glad that it happened.Im feeling like calm and relax now...and Frankly I couldnt be more grateful...

Psychological Colds

2009-12-07T01:13:00.005+08:00

Have you experience getting psychological colds?the kind which makes you instantly withdrawn and wants to give the first person you meet a swift kick in the head? I do...and Im experiencing it right now...

For the longest time I find myself despising the people around me...I hate hypocrisy...and having so much tupperwares areound just wont do it...Its like im beginning to get claustrophobic because of these dimwits...And I couldnt just rip their hearts out of their chest...Its not in our code of conduct.I might get a memo.

Im still observing...like a grandmaster in a chess tournament...contemplating my moves and bidding my time...And Im learning to be a little bit selfish and loving myself a bit more...I know that ill reclaim again my spot.

La Hombra Immortis

2009-11-24T14:34:00.003+08:00

I never thought I could be this mean....and i'm loving it.I wasnt born this way but due to unavoidable circumstances...I was forced to let my dark side out...And Im sooo glad I did.
You see Ive been very nice to people around me...Even those ungrateful bullshits at workplace...I tried to make friends with them.But I guess,no matter how you look for an ideal place to work...some things never change....and there will always be those people who are for the life of them,are eager to be on top and always in. I dont have have problems with that ...but when my peaceful existence are threatened...My vicious side just gets out.
And the one I mentioned in one of my recent blogs,hes the one Im pointing at....well,I may be quiet and just ignoring it on the outside,to the point of being labeled as catatonic but never underestimate a quiet person. There are lots of things that are going inside my mind...and dang! did I made those real! hehehehe
witchcraft has been a long tradition in the family...a lineage which can never be forgotten.Lets just say I summoned few trusted entities to do my bidding...Karma wise.I cant be hit.Why? HE STARTED IT..and Im just returning ther favor...and its taking effect. Talk about him getting sick and wasted...till when? i dont know...call me bad but Im not about to end soon...not just yet.
I know its not right but its ok....Ive been very nice and all...and am just giving him a taste of his bitter medicine.I felt relieved....I might be cruel...but it made me happy...and I am smiling.Finally, the forces...conspiring with me...Ive been badly hit in the past....Its about time.

P.S. I wonder how does it taste when your tootbrush is used
as a toilet bowl cleaner...I dont know...but he does... ( smiles wickedly)

You asked for it...

2009-11-19T19:17:00.000+08:00

...Let the Bitch Fight begin...

Rift...Insecurity and blah blah....

2009-10-28T11:48:00.002+08:00

This is'nt about me...more like someone I am now living with.Dont get me wrong...I just moved on in a townhouse with a friend and we decided to have another one shre the expenses.This one is an officemate. He was quite fine until weve reached the norming stage...adjusting to each others quirks and all shit.
He had what we call the basic carry overs of a young urbanite ( laptop,phones,CC etc...) but something 's wrong with the way he's acting. ..and Im not liking it.He has an attittude problem...like hes all that....I dunno whats happening...and slowly getting disgusted.
I am nice...way too nice and Im still keepin my temper under moderate conditions...and Im really hoping that its just a norming process...Knwoing how vicious I am if provoked...He wouldnt stand a chance ... Im still keeping my fingers crossed about the whole thing and praying that itll pass...otherwise,I guess I wouldnt have a choice but to bring out my dark side...It has been long dormant.But then again...it feels good to be vicious and bad sometimes.Dont you think? ( smiles devilishly...)

Musings of a 31 year old Chinito

2009-09-15T21:14:00.004+08:00

Time flies sooo fast and before I know it,another year has been added,a page turned in my life...I am already 31 yrs old. My parents are already asking me when I will settle..Not that Im gay or anything but this got me thinking for a while...does it really have to go with age?I dunno but emotionally Im still looking for that perfect and missing piece of the puzzle...

For those of you who followed me circa 2006 when I was still clueless on life and love,You know that Ive been thru a lot and infact have died and got resurrected emotionally many times...So many that it would shame your trusty planner

I never regreted the fact that Ive been thru ALL of those.Come to think of it,Those emotional milestones and obstacles made me like a wine...sinfully addicting as I age ( you get the point,right?)

I am now taking everything in stride...Not hurrying things anymore.Love was never meant to be halfbaked.It has to be churned and cooked with its own time..and that what Im doing now.Gone are the days that I have to beg for somebody to stay.I own now my world and my confidence and is not dependent on someone elses.

Bitch moments will always be there =) but now I know how to crush with subtlety.So subtle that you wouldnt know that youre crumbling before my very presence.And mastering this is an acquired taste.You have to experience getting in order to give something...And I always make it to the point to contain this power otherwise Ill raise chaos and hell all over ( which is osmetimes needed to wake up these idiots).

Im dating someone,more like going out with someone who is 10 years younger than me.Im not saying that I like younger men.If I could only choose I rather have someone close to my age but as destiny would have it...Younger men tend to gravitate towards me...Not that Im freakin father figure( no fuckin way! im too young for that!) but I guess maybe Im not all fuck and suck..I talk and think as well.And sense and sensibilty would always be needed in the relationship...( you bet)

Gone are the days of shock appeal as well.I play with subtlety in fashion.Clean haircut and casual clothes are the way to go.The only remnants of my flashy self are the contacts lenses which I still wear- but in hazel colors now...Taste evolves with age ...and I have found the way I REALLY would want to look and be seen.I couldve not been more grateful for this acquired taste of wisdom and sense.... =)

For Mama...with so much love

2009-08-15T23:56:00.004+08:00

Last week has been a gruelling ordeal. We had a family squabble and it got way too much to handle.Mom's ok but she still has some reservations over my stepdad after what happened.

And me...?

....I have to be the mediator and explain things to them...

Imagine.

Sometimes I ask myself why we have to go thru this...I had a fairly good childhood.Was raised by a loving family then...but this...?Is as if the world suddenly toppled over and acted on the opposite side.It felt heavy ...like I was serving some Karma over something I didnt do...

...I never questioned the will of the Big Guy Upstairs one bit...Im just musing at how things have happened.Like it was some scenario on a telenovela...and us...For the the life of me are acting the parts.

I just wish that the hurt would end soon.I love my mom so much.So much that when in front of her...my tear ducts are sealed.I dont wanna be weak when im with her.Coz I know shes getting her strength from me....The tears only show when im alone.But for Mom...Ill do everything.I dunno,But its just now that i learned how much I loved my mother.Dont get me wrong,Ive been a good son....

But its just now I realized that I LOVE HER THIS MUCH

that im willing to stand up for her against my stepdad....

I already told him that nobody can hurt my mother as long as Im around....

Its a tall challenge and warning...

...But Im happy....

Everything....for Mom. =)

Me...Stripped...Raw...for keeps.

2009-08-08T18:26:00.004+08:00

I recently had or more likely tried to have an encounter again. My friends are all having it...SEB's and all so I kinda thought, hey might as well try it again...but then...

It turned out as a suprise that I dont or make that no longer enjoy those fleeting encounters anymore.I went to the pad of this guy and we did the whole thing minus the penetration...but on the totality..I didnt enjoyed it. I came..sure...but there was this thing ...one thing lacking... and im very sure its just now that I was able to check it within.

I got scared while these thoughts whirled in my head...Am iI turning frigid..(!) Seems like I have lost the zest in one night things.Before I usually get up with that post-coital glow...but now everything seemed to be bland...to the extent of numbness.I felt like a whore.It was depressing.

then it dawned to me...while taking a shower in my own bathroom,that I have REALLY grown up.I am now looking for INTIMACY,the kind that entwines your emotions to this certain person...That the void I was feeling after that suck session was entirely due to spending it with someone I barely know...and now,I realized that my heart was already taking centerstage...and im longing to have that someone whom I can love for all my life...

This really suprised me..I guess gone are the days for the player in me...besides,I have had my share of heartbreaks,have broken the hearts of many and craziness.I guess this is the time to know what LOVE really is all about...and what instore for me...Im feeling giddy..like a highschool boy with his first crush...but Im liking the feeling..And I want it to last..this time.

...

2009-07-10T13:07:00.002+08:00

Biatchy Thought :

Embassy at the Fort is not for gays and bi's..most of the people there are posseurs and
just plain look-at-me-im gorgeous please- type. Music is good but the atmosphere is fake.

I'd take Goverment and Bed anytime.

Smack -o -whirl

2009-07-09T08:50:00.004+08:00

Have you ever been in the situation wherein everyone and everything seems to be going against you? As if the forces of the universe decided to test your patience and trip on you?...well,thats how I feel now.

Things arent that worse,its just that I feel like theres this blue funk shrouding every idea that I have...and my burst of perkiness are also affected.I hate it...I am always the last ones that gets this momentarily surge of depression but now I feel like it has eaten me..whole.

I am still sick with this acute pharyngitis and still recuperating.I dont like the idea that I cant function well.And this came at the moment wherein I decided to do my best in everything.Nice.

Im currently using all the powers that I have and the things that I have in my room to dispell gloom...will do a dvd marathon later...And Im really hoping that it would lift my spirits...I just hate the fact that the glow in me kinda dimmed for a while..hope to bounce back soon.

Bitch Quotes to perk you up...

2009-07-01T03:51:00.003+08:00

...there are times in your colored lives that you are faced with situations that leaves you with NO choice but to crush your opponents with your diva one liners...hope you get something here! heheheh...Drumroll pls!!!

"You..out of my planet...Now!

"Magkano ba ang problema mo...?"

"Everybody is entitled to being stupid but honey, youre abusing the privilege"

"I dont need your attitude..I have one of my own"

"Were having creative differences..Im creative and youre different"

"Its not an attitude honey, its the way I am"

"Kung pangit ako...ano ka na?"

" Buti na lang bakla ako...kung hindi mamamatay kang birhen.."

" Nakakakilala ka pa ba ng salamin..?"

" Im gorgeous...not helpless..."

" Wherever I go, I make the goddamn rules..."

" If you want a space, Join NASA.."

"thank you for saying this, atleast im not gonna have a hard time letting you know whats in my head..."

The Fairytale Reality Check

2009-06-30T04:00:00.004+08:00

I hate to break the stereotype but sometimes we have to have a reality check...(its like slapping your cheeks with your own hand with full gusto).Are we really inlove? or are we just inlove with the thought of being inlove?(try saying that 5x faster)
I feel envious sometimes whenever I see couples or gay couples for that matter getting cozy to each other...(this is a dead giveaway to my current lovelife).what makes them tick and what makes me sooo elusive.Its not that Im presenting myself to every guy I meet but you get the thought.
I started to check my self and then I noticed some things...that Yes,If I will be dating me...Id back off.men got intimated because there are certain traits that I guess shooes them away and singles me out in the whole dating and getting cozy arena...c'mon,dont say I told you so...im working on it.
Dont get me wrong...there are brave guys who still hit on me but I guess its more on finding the shoe that fits...and on myself....taming my Mr.Hyde.Im starting the process of overhauling myself emotionally and physically (Again!) so as to be ..uh...more accomodating to people..and to the One I will be giving my life it...(stupidity meter just rose a notch level)

Everybody loves a fairytale and frogs turning into a princes but sometimes,reality feels better and the more tangible it becomes...the better the outcome will be...

P.S. I kissed gazillion of frogs already and up to now,
all Im seeing are Orcs...Ugh.

The frailty of Human Existence

2009-06-20T04:34:00.005+08:00

Im not fatalistic...I usually look into the brighter side of everything but there will always come a time that in some way, these morbid thoughts would creep in...like, What im working for? my money goes to those things that I adorn my body with...which in time shall rot and turn into dust.that these things would just be anything but mementos of a being who once hedonistically purchased them.
That all of these things that we must endure are part of nothingness...that we would just be a speck of nothing when grim reaper comes and knocks in...Its a scary thought..and I am often haunted by that...That everything that we have worked on for...will be for nothing.. this is where "nothing lasts forever" comes into view.I usually block these thoughts by thinking that there would always be a brighter side but there are times that this technique doesnt work.That I ,for the life of me gets swallowed in these morbid thoughts....
Prayer usually helps to strengthen your faith that everything would turn out just fine..but there would always be that tiny voice in me...asking why? why do we have to die? where would we go...would there really be a safe place afterlife?...
I know that these questions are trivial but when you try to atleast think about it...this is where we all grasp for something tangible...a solid answer....to hold on to..and to reassure that we will just be fine ...Such is the frailty of human existence.

EARGASM

2009-05-18T12:50:00.004+08:00

I never thought I'll be addicted to music this much till now...I had this ipod for 2 yrs and had a fairly good playlist but now,I think ill go crazy if this little devil will crash.To put it succintly,I wouldnt survive a day without music.
Warren,a friend and a former DJ uploaded some songs in my ipod and suggested that i purchased this ginormous headset from Cdr-king...Like a true music afficionado,I went to the mall and did what i was told...and Wham! Music never felt this good...sooo good that its better than sex and masturbation..( for now...)
My ipod boasts now of eclectic playlist ranging from house to 80's down to the swingin groove of the 60's...A compact jukebox...and i couldnt ask for more baby!..heheheh!!!
Im planning to get an ipod touch though in the future to widen my playlist and save these treasures forever...now my only worry is how can I extract the songs from the ipod and store it in my laptops back up files...since all the songs are in mp3 form,its directly stored in the playlist...hhhmmmnnn..calling all IT professionals!!!

For now,I can say that Im really satisfied with the music and all shit...this entry is different from the juicy ones but im good...and contented.So contented that I'll just let my ears do the fucking for me...hehe

Re Emerging...

2009-04-25T09:14:00.003+08:00

Im currently in a new company which I find ill be staying with for good.Thank God Im finally settled...it took time but it was worth it...Many opportunities are waiting...and i know howim worth...getting there can never be far behind...

many things have happened to me...got an emotional overhaul for the longest time and I am single again..(I think). Though life has been kind to me or rather has shown me chances on forever...Im not banking on that anymore...I want something real this time.

This year will be a year of metamorphosis for me...something good and lasting will happen...I feel it..Ive been in the hole for quite sometime,done some soul searching and banged my head against the freakin wall..now is the time...

I may have let go of things in the past but that doesnt mean
Im stupid...just cautious...dont wanna make the same tiring
mistakes again...been there...done that...time to move on...NOW.

Hayden Kho Scandal Pic

2009-03-23T01:02:00.002+08:00

I recently got jolted on this picture from my email.The sender, a friend informed me that this is the picture of Hayden kho.Yep, the estranged bf of Doctor of the Stars Vicki Belo...
I was really shocked and amused ...well the guy in the photo was quite a looker..both in the face and in nether areas but I'm still not quite sure.it was just sent to me thru email and I still have to check it further.Anyhow here its is...enjoy!

Dial -a -Lover Syndrome

2009-03-21T18:22:00.006+08:00

Its kinda ironic that people fall in love with just their voices over the phone...exchange sweet nothings and profess undying love for each other then meet up and...kabooom! end up with nothing...
I am guilty and have been a victim of this vicious cycle.Been hurt and wound others in the process.this got me thinking before that really humans as well as their emotions arent consistent...everything was just one big bullshit.The words that you say over the phone...the sweet forevers..all gone in a second you laid eyes on your "lover'.Because he doesnt fit your idiot of standards.No matter how much we profess that we dont have any standards...things do change in a snap when upon instinct we see that the other person that we use to love over the phone doesnt fit this unseen standard.And this is sooo pathetic.
People who were able to see whats beyond tangible are really worth keeping.I learned that in a hard way.I've lost some relationship in the past due to me being like this.I have learned my lesson...And am repairing my emotional status again.

"... most often than not,Whats beyond tangible are the
things that last for a lifetime..."

Death Note

2009-03-19T17:39:00.004+08:00

Im still in the process of watching the series Death Note and I must say its addicting! the plot or the basic of it maybe simple but the story is twisted.So twisted that youll get hooked in it...and man! the characters...their damn raw and morbidly likable.A different take on Hell Girl but nevertheless worth watching.
It all started when a straight A student (Light Yagami) finds a notebook that inturn belongs to a Shinigami(Ryuk). A death God in the the Spirit Realm.The notebook is so powerful that it bears instructions on how to use it-for whoever name is written in the pages will die-either with heart attack if you never wrote the way hes gonna die or follow the what you inscribbled in the notes.The student takes the role of the grim reaper(Kira) and the mysterious deaths begin...baffling even the police force.
It shouldve been the start of utopia but then again,killing people no matter how grave their crime is is nothing but a mad man's revelry.Here comes L ,a mysterious detective/student whos hell bent on finding whos behind the sudden deaths...The character is quite eerie but really smart...So smart that he was able to decipher and unmask the killer...well,almost.
I havent finished the whole series and Ive heard that there is a death note 2...but I tell you..If you want an anime which is very far from your usual wholesome naruto/bleach kind, then DeathNote might just be the right series to watch on dark nights...A word of advice though- This series is bordering on the gruesome/macabre genre and would definitely keep your neurons awake.

Fortress

2009-03-14T21:25:00.007+08:00

Have you ever wondered why sometimes you feel like everything is moving fast before your eyes and yet there you are?- in a suspended state.like you are watching life unfold before your eyes only your not part of it.Im in that current state now...

There are times that I feel like Im so removed from the people around me.That I cant feel or relate to whats going on..A self preserving mechanism? I dont know...But at times that I feel that im saturated with the people and their issues,The walls suddenly rises and I retreat to my fortress.

Im a friendly person but I dont like over familiarity.Most probably due to the fact that Ive had bad experiences with those "friends" in the past...I still would like to have a line between me and the people in my universe.

And I hate Users... and those pretending to be nice...

I like jessica Zafra's first twisted book...because the writings and the emotions contained there are familiar.That there are times... trying times that without my conscious thinking, I isolate myself from the people so as not to get affected by their mundane concerns.Dont get me wrong..people need people...but not stupidity.

I still feel remove from the people around me and I am doing things on my own...Im not feeling any sadness but more like loneliness of the subtle type.Simply because I cant and refuse to get affected and be overfamilarized with everything...and everyone.

Sometimes I envy those people who can be friends with everyone and do things together with their friends...Im not like that.I have lots of friends but I like privacy.There are things that Id like to keep private...And Im thanking my Mom for showing me the value of privacy.

I may sound like ranting here but this is me...We can be friends...I can even offer you a shoulder to cry on.but we need to have our own privacy...you cross that line...I'll slit your throat(kidding)...

I Stay Inlove

2009-02-07T11:13:00.004+08:00

The moment I heard this song, i instantly fell inlove with the melody and the lyrics...its bittersweet and haunting...akin to what I have experienced not so long ago...the sister song to "dont forget about us"
I dont know how you guys feel but whenever Mariah creates a slow rnb love song such as this,it never fails to catch my attention...it hits a raw nerve inside...the emotions still intact and beautifully entwined in the melody...It maybe hurting but musically wise, I couldnt ask for more..heres the song and her performance... I hope you like this one...

Bakit Ikaw pa rin...

2009-01-21T03:54:00.001+08:00

another one of the old favorites...maricris garcia's good in this song.it was originally done by Ella mae saison for Gimik! the movie...its a poignant bittersweet song...enjoy reminiscing...

Sana maulit Muli...(My Saddest entry by far...)

2009-01-11T03:22:00.006+08:00

I recently gave my heart to person who sadly doesnt even know how to appreciate it...I gave everything...the tears..the love...and the longing to no avail.It hurts to know that after everything I've done...My heart would still be left alone...cold and deserted.
Just when is enough? I dont know...At this point, Im still trying to grasp everything.Making sense of what has transpired and what made me decide to end it all.I love that person with all of me but I was taken for granted because he tries to maintain this discreet persona...That we agreed to meet at this certain hour and I was made to wait for more than an hour just because some girl asked him to accompany her to smoke.Totally forgetting that there was I,waiting for him,the dinner I ordered for us getting cold...And when in the car being told that I shouldnt expect too much from him,that we never made any promises prior to this relationship...and he will still marry some girl in the future and asking me why am I feeling torn..? Is asking for a small appreciation and love too much? we are just starting and I am given these information already...am I expected not to feel a thing?...Just when is really enough? I was hurting and still am.Not for him but for the fact that I have loved again...thrown all cautions in the wind and still was taken for granted.
I have ended the relationship 2 days ago prior to this writing and I was crying not from the outside.But from the innermost recesses of my soul.That I gave everything and was torn into pieces...and left alone ..crying and wondering what went wrong on my part...
I know that there is a lesson behind all of this...and right now,im still waiting for that silver lining.That someday I could fathom why it was me...why it happened and will I still be able to give everything after this...Im still keeping the faith...

"...Sana maulit muli...
di na sana aasa pa...
kung kaya ko sana..."

"You just have to pull the red string..."

2008-12-23T01:14:00.010+08:00

This is my favorite line on the anime series that I am currently hooked on.Its not your usual anime(not hentai...stupid)because it aint for kids.This is basically horror anime which centers on this certain website that can only be accessed at the stroke of midnight, and those who want do it should have enough thirst for revenge to summon the main character Enma Ai a.k.a Hell Girl.The black clad unform,long raven haired school girl with piercing red eyes who carries out revenge on your behalf.
The whole essence of the series is somewhat gloomy but nevertheless this one certainly satisfies one of our primal instinct...the need to get things even on those who have wronged us great.I like it for that.Imagine having someone ferried your enemy straight to the depths of hell?what couldnt be more satisfying...?
It may sound tempting but there is a price to pay...As Enma ai tells the disclaimer to the protagonist,.."When a soul is cursed....two graves are dug...your enemy will go straight to hell but when you die,yours will have the same fate...going to the pits and not having known paradise..." the covenant is chillingly tempting as she hands a doll with a red string to the person needing revenge...and she just needs to pull it to seal the covenant.
this anime is as dark and gloomy as it gets but as soon as you watch the first episode...youll get hooked..its addicting.Imagine witnessing the deaths of many villains and having the main character triumph at the end of the episode..now it doesnt get any better than this,right?...and Id rather see someone get torn into pieces and be carried straight to hades than see him rot in jail.I wish www.Hellcorrespondence.com really exists...sigh*
All in all ,Hell Girl is really a deviant anime,breaking the usual norm in cartoon world and people might chastise this...but lets get real...what would you rather see?..The rapist rotting in jail or having him splintered into pieces then get ferried by Enma Ai to Hell?...as she puts it..

"The decision is yours to make..."

Turning into Wine

2008-12-19T17:44:00.004+08:00

When I reached 30, I thought I'll never get to enjoy things that I used to do..goofing and all shit.I got into this little demented though that Ill be like the quinessential dirty old guy..hehehe but I notcied that everything turned out to be favorable on my part. I may have looked different from my late 20's but im definitely better now...sexiness and wisdom combined..hmmnn..a fatal combination...hehehe
Im sporting a semi mohawk now...the kind that still can blend into the crownd though most of the time its a sure standout...and with reddish brown color...makes me look more japanese than ever.Its a sure tamed one compared to the blonde hues I used to sport in my early years but this is more easy on the eye and definitely matches my skintone.
I let go of my contacts lenses and amd seen with my natural eye color.Though I miss the different hues in my eyes,I guess I look better when I have natural browns...BUT I shaved my eyebrow...Ooops dont get me wrong...this isnt your drag queen type of shaving but more like how japanese guys shave their eyebrows...or rather I had it cleaned...now my eeys look more samurai than before...
Perspective wise,Ive grown a lot...I used to beg for relationship before...and had my share of humongous disappointments but Now,I can say that Im better...more matured and naughtier...=)I was able to see things now that were overlooked before...and care for the people I used to take for granted a little bit...
Lastly,One of my friends told me that Im slowly turning into a wine...like it..as I age gracefully,I become more well rounded and a better person thatn who I was before.Reflecting on the things that I've been thru and the things that made me who I am now...I couldnt agree with her more. =)

Twilight Hype

2008-12-08T00:59:00.002+08:00

Just watched the DVD from the states that my cousins sent me.And Im really thankful I never watched on the cinema.I hate to say this but the movie just doesnt do that much to jolt my senses.To brutally say it...its a normal love story laced with vampire undertones.The story is a bit draggy and I must say...Titanic would definitely be better watching again.
Dont get me wrong,the cast are all superb and the effects are subtle and esential but this just wouldnt do...the movie is the visual substance of everyhting thats written and it somewhat fails to deliver.I have all the books concerning the journey of bela and edward and from someone who has read it first...the film tries hard to stick with the plot but fails to capture that dark brooding magic of the story.The things that captured my attention and the time that I stayed glued on the screen was the baseball game and the confrontation of James and Edward and its just that...I know that this is just the start of the saga of this star crossed lovers and things (I hope) would get better on the installments...but if you were to ask me now which I prefer?...I'd take Titanic anytime.

Me...

2008-11-16T23:56:00.002+08:00

heres the most recent pics Ive taken...Just got out of the gym...Guess Im really heading for the big and bulky department

Daniel Radcliffe

2008-11-14T23:28:00.002+08:00

Daniel used to be this adorable tyke who won our heart in Harry Potter series...Now he has explored his other options in the acting world...Recently he garnered praise for his role in the theatre production of Equus...Indeed,Daniel has really grown up...( pun intended)

2nd asian heatwave

2008-11-14T23:09:00.003+08:00

I used to collect (well,I still do..) M2M porn and mostly of caucasian actors but it was just last year that I got hooked on my own kind...Asian.
Its a lot more erotic you might say...Innocent chinky eyes with gifted adnis like physique...What more can you ask for? Eversince I watched my first Bukkake film..its never been the same...
These are just snippets of what asian guys are capable of doing...they could burn you inside out...hehehe.Believe me...I should know. Enjoy!!!

Young Pinoy Adonis...

2008-11-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

Something to drool at...nice,young and nubile body...waiting to be explored...hehehe enjoy his full splendor!!!

Narcissistic? or just plain fed up with this...?

2008-11-05T15:01:00.004+08:00

Im sorry it took me this long to write here...been busy with the past months...but im writing here again...for good.Much has changed about my life...Im more buff...bigger you might say.Been pumping iron in the gym.And guess what ? Still single...ooops! hehehe
Ive been dating but lately it seems that all the guys Im dating with arent on the same wavelength.Im just 30 but whenever I talked to them,I just couldnt relate to their ideas.Theirs are trivial( think PSP) bordering to mediocre( think All stars DOTA).I mean,theres more to life than pulverizing your opponent with your lasers...cmon.
Its kinda tiring on my part...feels like a vicious cycle ...I cant seem to find the person whom I can relate mentally...comprehend things outside our comfortable shell and talk about life in general.Paging sensible guys out there...?!!
Guess I just have to focus on how I can make myself more presentable.I know that guy is just around.Ill bid my time...so when he comes into my life..itll be worth it for both of us

SOIS TOIS (just be...)

2008-09-22T18:59:00.005+08:00

After all the obstacles...here I am and I guess..well,survived it all. Im already 30. A sexy goateed chinito...ripe for pickin...hehehe
Upon looking back at what my life has been, I can say that Ive been to the pits and heavens and have made it to what I am now. Im not regretting anything and I feel that just as now...life is just starting to unfold...for real.
I think I have never looked this best until now.Well,compared to my highschool pics... you could say I've metamorphosed.Big time.I've never been more confident until now.
Most probably this stemmed from the fact that I have stuck it with my values no matter how many times I was sidetracked in the past.I may not be the type of guy you would take home to mom but surely im a good guy...sooo good you that you'd wish I'll be the one you'll wake up with everyday. =)
I have met someone again...but this guy was able to domesticate me.Clippin my horns was never easy but he did it efforlessly.hehehe..or I just love him that much as well.I can say that I have never been so comfortable with someone until I met Mikel. My half...

This may appear as some random musings of guy in retrospect but then again..I could ve never been more proud that I am what I am now. Stronger,wiser and keepin it real... and I have come to learn AND ACCEPT THINGS AS THEY ARE AND JUST LET THINGS BE ASL ONG AS IT MAKES ME HAPPY AND IM NOT HURTING ANYBODY'S ASSES(pun intended)

....Just be....

Chris

2008-08-16T01:07:00.005+08:00

After the gym I decided to go for a nice massage( again) and went to this center for the blind that caters to shiatsu and swedish massage.I got a cubicle and when the blind guy got in...My jaw almost dropped.He could no more be than 25 yrs old.Boyish looking and fairskinned.If hes not blind you would think that where i got myself into is one sleazy massage parlor for gays.He is ruggedly handsome.I gave him a once over.Standing at 5'10ht,a bit buff... I think I got the prize catch of the day.He introduced himself as Chris.
I was even more surprised when he started kneading the knots in my back...He has the softest hands!!! it felt smooth.With the combination of his gentle and firm pressure,By all means,this is heaven ...bring it on.

He talks straight and theres no hint of anything gay...I resigned myself to a wholesome wholebody massage but we can never under estimate the sensuality of the hands against the skin with lubricant.Its a sure fire to burn you within.I started having a hard on the moment he massage my butt and at the time that hes in my pelvic part...I alrady have a throbbing hard on with pre cum on the sides.He continously massaged my pubes which drove me crazy and made me bit my lips.hes silent thats why I choose to be quiet as well.But when he asked me if Id like to have it this hard ( he sensually inserted his middle finger in my ass and slowly fingered me..) I said to my self...bullcrap! this is it!!!

I spread my legs wider and allowed him to finger me...I couldnt contain it anymore.I reached out for his zipper...and Fuck! was I amazed!There lies a 7 inch (i think) thick cock with a raging hard on as well.I slowly sucked him in...his precum glazing my lips( it tasted sweet)...Sensing how good I am deepthroating him,he started to move his hips against my mouth.Choking me in the process.Rhythmically we moved...him fucking my lips and fingering my ass...me,jacking my cock and sucking him like theres no tomorrow.It was fuckin awesome.With contollrd grunts and moans...I started spurting,he sensed this and massaged my prostrated even more sending me in almost shouting grunts.It was sheer pleasure. And when hes cock got bigger along with the veins..I knew he'll explode soon...I started sucking him even more...deeper and harder like a vacuum...before I knew it..my lips are welcoming his explosion of cum...He tasted sweet.damn.
He asked for my number and gave me his schedule in the center and asked me if I wanted him to be my exclusive masseur.I said yes.I gave him a kiss and a tip inside of the cubicle.He even was the one who cleaned everything.The bed was cum drenched.I paid my fee outside the reception desk and bid goodbye to them and chris...they said goodbye to me as well,smiling.Unaware of the fucking sexcapade that happened in the 1st cubicle.

...And this is just the beginning... =)

My mom's fried chicken

2008-08-03T20:26:00.004+08:00

I was appointed recently by force to be the chef in my team's gathering.It was held in the hotel.I was asked to make the chicken edible.So there.
I simmered the chickedn in 7-up and basil (betcha u dont know that) and cooked it in medium fire till its all brown and done.The whole team was very grateful.The chicken tasted like gourmet.I was thankful.
When I got home suprisingly,my mom cooked fried chicken as well.As usual,I zoomed to the dining room.As I had my first bite, I smiled...humbly accepting my defeat.My chicked is nowhere near my mom's.Hers was a masterpiece.Right salty and sweet and tangy...plus it always brings back the childhood memories of rainy nights spent with family...Suddenly,I was that 7 yr old chubby kid again.
I cant pinpoint it but something in my mom's cooking makes it a delectable feast.Probably she always cooks with love for me,my dad and my kid sister...no matter how big I am..I guess I'll always be her little boy.Whatever my mom cooks transports me in my childhood days..when we have untarnished innocence.I guess her menu will always be my comfort feast...im not singling out any because each is done with pure love...hay, Chow time!!!

Transparency...or somewhat like it

2008-07-26T13:35:00.005+08:00

Friends are there to be your support system.And Im really thankful that I have them its just that now,I dont know if its right that I told them what I feel firsthand.
Im not happy with my current immediate superior and the team mates that I have.Somethings just not right.Being the sensitive guy that I am,I just cant pinpoint it.It all started when my efforts on this certain contest where overlooked.I felt unappreciated.That where I started to get frozen.Before I used to devout most of my time to my previous team but now it has a timeframe of 10 hrs only.I wanna get away from them as soon as possible.Im not comfortable anymore.
I know its not right that i told my friends abt what I feel first but then again...friends understand you in your own wavelength.They dont judge you for what you are and your thoughts.Well,the upshot of it was my superior learned about it and she texted me about the whole thing.Now where would you start to break the news that you dont wanna be in her team anyway?I still look up to her thats why I dont know how to start.Well as long as I can be transferred to another team,thats fine.
I already talked to our director about this and he advised me that he will definitely give a feedback to her.I ask him what if she bullied me because of this?The director informed me that if in anyway the treatment change,I should inform him at once.Im still keeping my fingers crossed that everything will be fine and I will be transferred.Good thing I have my boyfriend whos there for me..he patiently listened and hugged me.In him I was able to find support and love.and with my family around me,I know ill get over this obstacle.

Changes...

2008-07-08T16:21:00.005+08:00

I dont think I'll ever fit in to a situation and get stuck in it till kingdom come.I dunno...I hate being stagnant.I can stay for like a month or two but u can bet your two cents that i'll start squirming after that...Just like what im feeling right now with the people around me...in my work place.I wanna soar high and welcome the change.as refreshing as the skies above me.
Dont get me wrong...I can blend easily with people and most often than not,I am the life of the group.but I wanna do things with friendship.Not out of respect solely.I long for the time that I was in my previous team.Where everything was done with camaraderie and the willingness to help...even if its thank you only.
I can combine friendship and respect but if its just one...I dont think I can survive that long to be productive.I pulsate with lights..different lights and emotions...Respect is good..but I need to be humane...And I wanna do things with not just respect...but because they are my friends.I have done my part and delivered the goods...I can only hope for the best...And I'm really raring to go to my former team.

Nancy Jane's Love song..The DanceFloor Goddess is born

2008-06-26T17:30:00.007+08:00

Nancy Castiglione reemerged as one of the Goddesses of the dancefloor...And we were not dissapointed.The pixie faced girl was gone and lo and behold...A sexy siren beckons to you...armed with the hypnotic voice and music...Its like Hed Kandi meets Kylie Minogue.
Her carrier track is Love song...A dance music that ironically is haunting...the effect is similar after listening to Bonnie bailey's Ever After.It makes you crave for more.The electronica blends harmoniously to her angelic childlike voice...before you know it,its too late...youre hooked.

Just for the test drive,I had the song played in the gym and most of my gymbuds asked me who's that girl singing...was it a new release from Kylie Minogue?Their jaw dropped when I told them that its nancy castiglione...They just dont wanna take it till they could get hold of the cd...well,4 buff guys rushed to the music store after they worked out.hehehe.they werent dissapointed either.
Congratulations to you Nancy Jane on your maiden album!! ! more power!!!

Love Song - Nancy Jane

OJ Mariano Ballads feat If ever youre in my arms again

2008-06-17T20:15:00.005+08:00

I just grabbed a copy of Oj mariano's ballads.A collection of the most heartwarming lovesongs sung in a male point of view.His rendition of If ever youre in my arms again totally blew me away!!! he turned this song into his own,and an RnB version to boot.I was speechless.
Never was an emotion fully showcased in a song,to think that this song has been reincarnated many times.It sounded new in his voice.And you could almost feel the longingness in it...especially in the end...You could almost imagine a guy..still inlove..under the rain standing...begging you to be in his arms again..promising you forever...with all his heart.
The other songs in the album are excellent pieces making up the totality of the impact.He might not be as popular as your Jed maddela but he definitely knows how to sing with his heart...with passion and soul.His album is a must have if your a sentimental dude...youll never go wrong buying it.Trust me.Im a convert now.More power in your music!

Skinny jeans and all shit....

2008-06-06T16:07:00.008+08:00

Before you start reacting to the recent post...its just my way of viewing what I've been seeing around...guys...girls and God forbid!!! gays alike. Personally...I dont like the fashion nowadays...its all freakin skinny jeans everywhere...so tight that by just looking at them you could have a hernia.
I dunno...this whole thing on the jeans doesnt appeal to me the way flared hipster got me before...I mean..sure this is hugging the curves but then again...you might as well just wear a stocking if you want is the pair of jeans this tight.Not to mention that NOT all have been blessed with nice shape of calves...Ugh! Its just an ugly sight.
Im for the straight cut to flared type of pants...flared type of pants looks sexy especially the dangerously low cut...I dont usually wear any undies when I wear this type of jeans but make sure that I shaved my pubes to attain those almost baby hairs...You could guess the rest when I raise my arms to hold the steel bar in MRT train on a rush hour...hehe.guys and girls alike would stare at my navel...the "karug" going down to my bulge...Come to think of it...I already got 3 proposals when I alighted from the train on 3 different occasions...with 3 diff guys...but thats for another story.

Now back to fashion mishaps...Another thing im seeing is the scarves that resembles those worn by taliban men..the kind that resembles a table cloth usually in white and checkered red...I mean..cmon! color wheel has more than these colors and by Gads name! ...dont wear it here during summer!!! this is a Tropical country!! and you in any way dont look hot on these scarves...you just remind me of taliban dickheads who killed stupidly in their wrong notion of Jihad.Why dont you wear something that resembles the neck warmers that we see on korean telenovelas...that is way better and could go with almost any get up..BUT PLEASE...that doesnt give you the freakin excuse to wear it outside during lunch hour.THIS IS A TROPICAL COUNTRY...and cold months are from september to january.Hope that sinks in.
Fashion may come and go and most people join the fad.I had to admit that Ive been guilty at many times but this I think,is one fad that I'll go up against...Skinny jeans dont look good on muscular guys like me...and the same goes for you guys/gays out there!...If you have a pair of gastrocnemius(calves) the size of boxing glove then dont wear skinny jeans.Or risk looking like a mutated version of Donna cruz when she was in her leggings and oversized polo days.

This shouldnt have happened...but then again...

2008-05-09T09:11:00.004+08:00

I dunno whats gotten into the cosmic alignment that time...and I wasnt prepared for that as well...But something happened...something im not expecting and left me dumbfounded but oddly satisfied...this is not being unlucky...wanna find out...?read on...

I just got out of the gym...sore muscled tired from lifting weight and I decided to have my massage in the mall where they got blind masseurs.I asked for a full body and was taken to a cubicle.Im simply glad to have my massage.
I stripped everything and lay on my tummy and waited for the masseur.Then he arrived.He was a mid forty man,tall,a bit cute and blind(at least that what I know coz hes wearing shades)then he startes massaging me.

Im usually the moaner type...with the muscles slowly being massaged..I couldnt help it.The room got filled up with my moans...(sexy moans if your outside and hearing it,you might think someone is fuckin inside...hehehe).Whe he massaged my lower part...he changed from liniment to lotion...to make it smooth so he said.I couldnt care less...Im having the time of my life...but theres more to come...and it did came when i least expected it.he massaged my butt cheeks slowly,kneading the firm orbs...and then went to massage my lower abs..where my treasure trail grows...and his fingers got acquainted with my pubic skin...hairs and all.

Im a perfectly healthy gay man...and before I knew it...my cock was hard and throbbing.Sensing that im having a massive erection down...he slowly held my cock and gently move his hand up and down...This time I closed my eyes...and my moans lessened.I was biting my lower lip from sheer pleasure.I couldnt take it anymore...I lied on my back and and opened my legs...and he had the full view to get his hands busy...

He massaged my crack...(I love it damn!) my balls and my cock firmly and gently...my hips moving to fuck his encircling hand accordingly...and when Im about to explode...He massaged my crack in circular motion and jerked me simultaneously.I couldnt contained the pleasure anymore...With a heavy moan and grunt,I exploded in his hands.My cum spurting and hitting me in the chest,neck and cheeks.he got hit in the uniform as well...

I lay there motionless while he was cleaning me with a towel...Was I bad? i mean I just lay there and responded to him...more like a primal instinct.And I enjoyed it very much.Needless to say,I got dressed,went out and paid the fee and gave him a tip.Nobody knew what happened inside the cubicle.it happened to fast...too soon...When I got out...it dawned to me..this is my first encounter with a blind man...and I fuckin liked it. hehehe

Hana Kimi...and getting hooked in it

2008-04-28T15:45:00.004+08:00

I was bitten with a the hana kimi bug...my sister was begging me to get a dvd of this since last week and I,being a good big brother bought her that.So there.
Last saturday after I got from the gym,there was nothing else to do at the house.My whole family decided to have a recollection at the mall and I was home alone.Being an active person that I am,I wandered around the house and couldnt find anything I could busy myself into...then I turned into the stack of the dvd's.It turned out to be the best decision Ive had last saturday!
I chunked in the Hana kimi dvd and voila! I was transported into the world of innocent yet courageous love...the one which will brave the odds...even transferring from America to Yang kai(the school)Taiwan to make ones dream come true.This is the world of Lu rui xi(ella Chen),Xiu yi(Jiro Wang) and Zuo yi Quan(Wu Chun).
Ive never been so engrossed before...I mean after the meteor garden mania...Ive never come to look at these series as worth my time...but then again...Hana Kimi held me like a glove...a spell...and before I knew it...It was too late.I was hooked.
The story is superb..tho for the melodramatics it may sound shallow but then again...No one can contest the level of emotions with it comes to the heart...and fallin for the guy who made you turn around your principle 360 degrees!
I was able to relate with Rui Xi (Ella).I was once like her.I think I have gone to great lenghts before in the name of love.Was scarred yet unrelentlessly fighting.to be with that person no matter what.A painful yet worth remembering stage in my life.I dunno but when Rui Xi cried because of her being ignored by Quan ...I find myself crying with her...probably because her tears reminded me of the one I shed long ago...out of desperation and helplessness...Asking why everything is turning into an obstacle when all I want at that time was just to be with his side.To protect and love him.Such pure thoughts and wishes...in the name of love.

I like the innocent intrigue of secretly fallin for each other and yet trying hard to contain and get hold of ones self...that is sooo romantic...They had me in giggles and pink bubbles.hehehe! what can I say? Wu chun is one of the most handsome asian actors Ive come across with...and the idea of Him loving you secretly was just too much to take...HAHAHA!!! Im beginning to be cheezy again!!!
Jiro wang is hilarious and supplies most of the laughing parts.A talented actor and equally handsome...I dunno...Hes just so endearing and whoa!!! He posseses the same heavenly body as Wu chun...Il gladly take both of them anytime!!! hahahaha!!!
Seriously,Hana kimi's plot might be shallow on the first time but if youre able to read the underlying message...its more than the highschoolish love...its strength and love combined and personified.Like Rui Xi...I havent lost the zest to fight for what I believe would last a lifetime..be it love or otherwise.And Hana kimi just made me realize that if you persevere and fight for what you feel...dreams do come true...and more!!!One look at how Quan starts to care for Rui xi would prove everything.Hana kimi Rocks!!!

P.S. I like the light gay undertones of the plot as well...=)

Morphing into a Bishonen...

2008-04-14T16:19:00.004+08:00

Sorry if I havent been able to update you guys...been busy with my work ...and the gym...Whats up????

I just had my hair colored(for the longest time) again.Its a japanese hair color and the name reminds me of starbucks.Its milk tea. I've been crazy about the hair colors of my birthplace.Its different from the startling blondes of the US.Ours is subtle but kinda gets into your subconscious...hehehe.My hair is a cross over between a tamed strawberry blonde and ash blonde combined.And Im growing my hair long again...I guess Anime invasion is back with vengeance.hehehe.

Im planning to get contacts the color of blue skies...Well the contrast is good.Im a slit eyed guy and the color of my peepers are cerulean blue.A vivid features of a bishonen...And with long hair the color of ash blonde...you could guess the rest.

I havent been able to pay much attention to myself...I almost got drowned in looking for that blasted "one". I guess Ive had too much...Its about time that I love myself more than anyone else.It maybe a bit selfish to other people but I have given more than enough in loving those illusions.Temporary images with temporary satisfaction.Now Im loving ME and theres no stopping the metamorphosis.Its long overdue.

Im getting double takes again but I guess Id rather focus on life now.Life with its true essence is just starting to unfold before my eyes and I wanna savor every bit of it.I have gone far and wide to find completeness but it was when I regressed that I was able to piece the whole me.Finally.

P.S. nothing compares to the happiness
of fitting into your old jeans again... =)

Bleeding Heart

2008-03-30T15:59:00.001+08:00

My present status now...a gem of a song that digs and unravels whats inside of me...enjoy the song...

Bleeding Heart

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see...

Stagnant at 5 pm

2008-03-25T17:36:00.004+08:00

Just got out of the gym and typing in the computer...sorry if I dont have pictures here...its kinda strict here in the office.No downloading.Anyhow,my lifes ok...but somehow...deep inside,Im longing for something.Something that would make my blood rush.a natural high.Im not looking for sex...silly but more like the rush and adventures of being young again...I dunno...Im bored.my life has become a routine of some sort.work,gym work gym...I long for those days that I used to run in the fields...bantering with childhood friends in the rain...ah...the essence of being innocent..If I could just turn back the hands of time...those time that the thing that I worry is how to finish that goddamn algebraic equations in 2nd year...hehehe.
I love where Im at now and thankful that Im healthy and have reached this stage by far...but somehow...there are times that you wanna scream...that you feel that youre cooped up inside...that you wanna break free...for no reason at all...sometime it happens..and this is one of them.I hate catatonia.
am I still making sense?...I hope so...I just have to let this out or else like poison...itll kill me...figuratively.anyhow,I love life along with the ups and the uncertainty it brings but Im still longing for something wonderful and new...Something that would make the little boy inside me jump with glee again...till then...we'll both wait...hmmn.

My Big love

2008-03-12T16:24:00.003+08:00

I recently watched this movie...and I freakin enjoyed it!!!I usually am not into filipino movies due to its rehashed plots but this one kinda touched a soft spot in my heart. Mackie,the main guy character is very much like me before...I used to be fat.And Im tellin you...being in the heavy weight side is no joke.I think I experienced all kinds of rejections by that time.And I think thats the main reason that drove me to shed those pounds...To get back to the world.I did lost some pounds but then again it feels empty.Like half baked satisfaction.Then I begin to love and befriend my self slowly...loving the reason why Im doing it and felt complete from then on.I realized that vengance and getting back can fuel your passion for a while but leaves you empty handed afterwards.This movie cemented that idea.That no matter what you do...it would always always be satisfying to know that the reason your doing it is because you love it...and it makes you happy.

PS I cried a bit...I used to be like him. =)

If ever you (will) be in my arms again...

2008-03-10T18:52:00.002+08:00

My most favorite song made into duet...a nice arrangement...damn...never fails to bring out the romantic guy in me...along with the tears and wishes of what couldve been...sigh* Anyhow this is for you NIKO....years may have passed by but I guess...Im resigned to the fact that itll always be you Ive loved this deep.

PS Love really is sweeter the second
time around...cherish him if he comes back to you...

Ive come Undone

2008-03-04T08:56:00.004+08:00

Im quite nearing the ripe sexy age of 30 and Im suddenly having these momentarily flashes of my life...Its not a morbid thing but more like a reflection of what has transpired all this time...What Ive been through and what I have become...
Looking back I have been in the swirling and most often dizzying world of Gay realm since I first came out in the late 90's.I have experienced getting rejected and being loved...which unfortunately never lasted but nevertheless worth it.Why?...it made me stronger.
Now that im nearing almost half of my life...Id like to say that Im more focused.Had to admit that there are times that I got fatalistic but now,I think more of the people that I care most..my family and slowly starting to be there for them...I have been a good son,dont get me wrong.Its just that I feel that what Ive done to make them happy isnt enough...or just plain Im maturing enough to know WHO really matters in my life most.
Ive never considered this 30ish phase as of getting old but more like the start of the real adventure. Early 20's was more like rediscovering who I was and learning the ropes of everything.I couldnt have said it all.I learned everyhting I needed to.And now, armed with the precious nuggets of wisdom from those years...Im really eager to face my life and start an honest to goodness adventure.
I never am regretting that its just now I was able to see the bigger picture.Maybe its really just now that the bolts and knots started churning for me...and I know with my family and God with my side...I can live to the fullest with that one particular line of the song " Its time for me to do it...on my own." =)

Praying for Love

2008-02-25T16:09:00.002+08:00

this is one of my favorite video by donna de lory!!! the last time I saw it was 1993...i was only 15 yrs old!!! damn!!! its very rare...and if you will listen to the lyrics...its heavenly..deep and mysteriously romantic...enjoy the sexy groove and video

P.S I love the way she and that guy dances...its erotic...

Forces...

2008-02-22T13:48:00.003+08:00

I dont know whats with me...eversince I could remember,if I hate someone ...something bad happens to them.Im pretty much convinced now...you see I hate this one officemate because of her not so nice attitude...I just dont like her .I never wished her ill things but something bad happened to her lately...call it a coincidence?i dunno...but as far as I can remember,I thought of something...(its vague)that can make her realize that shes not all that and days after that...this thing happened.I still feel sad but somehow vindicated...she kinda made me out of place...and I feel that it was worth it...She learned how to talk to us again like friends...I dunno...I just dunno.

The Hate List

2008-02-17T19:16:00.004+08:00

I'd like to think that Im a sane person who loves peace but then again...everyone harbors a dark side...and now may I present to you...the factors that never fails to bring out the vicious side of me.

1. I hate those people who take their sweet time withdrawing to those ATM machines...and if your freaki unlucky ...they have their friend's atms to chuck out their freakin salaries.I almost once crushed a dumb factory girl for doing this...If they wanna take their sweet time...go to the bank and please let your other friends withdraw their own money...in respect to those who are waiting.

2. Those who demand that you should be goodlookin prior to EB but looks like your sole upon meeting.Jeez,If your not that presentable...then dont impose on others.Makes me wanna hurl them at the guillitone.

3. Those cashiers who simply refuse to exert effort in giving you change.They would simply tell you in a nonchalant way that "sir,we dont have change". Is it still my problem?Go get your ass moving to look for one then.

4. Those freeloaders who disguise as your friends...They would get your trust and then borrow things and money from you and would suddenly have an amnesia...like nothing ever freakin happened...

....these are some of them..i'll fill you in later...have to think still about those things that are bringing out the Mr Hyde in me...

Lo que siente la mujer

2008-02-17T13:05:00.003+08:00

This is madonna's version in spanish of What it feels like for a girl...one my my recent favorites! the video is at the bottom.check it out

Lo Que siente La mujer

deliciosa
labio suave y rosa... baby
piel de miel, dulce y silenciosa

te parece confundida
su pasion esta escondida
nunca sabes lo que va decir
cuando empieza a sonreir

quieres ver lo que siente la mujer
quieres ver y tratar de comprender...la mujer

seductora, pero nunca facil...baby
misteriosamente dura y fragil
lagrimas que no te enseña
su dolor no deja huella
no la trates ya de impresionar
solo dejate llevar

...Psychological catatonia

2008-02-15T20:34:00.004+08:00

sorry if its just now that I ws able to write or atleast inform you that im still existing.Been busy with my so called life...Have you ever encounered writer's block? its like a constipation of the brain...no matter how hard you push...it just wont do...no idea's coming out...even if feb 14 is way past from terrorizing me..I am stil in psychological catatonia...but Ill bounce back soon..

Date with an angel

2008-02-01T19:32:00.000+08:00

One of my favorite films of all time!!! plus the heavenly music thats played actually when the angel takes flight.But this one has the full length of the song I come alive...Enjoy!!!

Free by own choice

2008-02-01T18:32:00.000+08:00

The one im currently with informed me that his visa just arrived from Canada.Suprisingly it didnt hurt that much...maybe because I know that hes going anytime soon.And he was the one who was actually crying.I told him to go for it...That he prayed for this to happen and now that its here,He should grab the chance.Afer we talked,I kinda reflect on myself...Was I too scared to face that hell go? or have turned Ice cold to shield my self from the pain?...I guess having been a veteran of such many failed relationships,I opted for the latter.Maybe I just dont wanna be in the pits again.And I know Ill find someone better...But for now,I choose to be free...vree from the pain of being left behind.I am the creator of my symphony and I choose to create the happiest music the world will ever hear.

Tony Ward (from the Past...)

2008-01-31T20:15:00.000+08:00

Hes one of the mermaids in Madonna's video Cherish and had her boytoy for sometime.He became a supermodel and dabbled in arts and photography...now his works are known internationally..gay anD STRAIGHT BOTH REVERED ON HIS ECCENTRICITY AND ARTISTRY...enjoy his splendor...

Smells like a teen parent...

2008-01-31T19:14:00.000+08:00

Ok, my freakin P900 flex broke.and there was nuthin for me to do but to take it to the specialist....Have you ever felt like your the one whos takin all the pain...?as soon as the specialist opened and unscrewed the insides of my P900,It felt like I was the one who got ripped.Probably I cared about my phone that much...I dunno...but It felt weird.like I was a dad whos watching his son get operated.Ihate the feelin...whew! It felt like I was a REALLY a dad that time.To top it all,my P900 flex was beyond repairable and I simply need to replace it...This is sooo freakin frustrating! I went out of the mall seething.Though it is still ok to use the stylus,I couldnt bear to see my phone incomplete or have it operated again for the second time...I guess I just have to get a new one...dang!

Pinoy Flavor....

2008-01-25T10:39:00.001+08:00

Some of the pics that I browsed and checked in the net...damned! If this is the way fiesta would be celebrated in the Philippines...you can be sure Ill be there in the front row of the procession!!! heheheh!!!!

Indeed,Pinoys are really not a race to be taken for granted!!!! Sugod mga Guerilla!!!!

The 8th Original Sin

2008-01-25T10:13:00.000+08:00

I asked for a day's leave to have my gums checked because it got swollen...most probably because of what I ate (damn those chickenjoys).Luckily I was just advised to take my amoxicillin and mefenamic...no serious prob.And the good part is I get to do my favorite habit(its not masturbating...hehehe,its just 2nd to that)which is SLEEPING!!!
I slept for almost 10 hrs and boy,what a rest it was...I am wickedly rejuvenated!!! not to mention that I was able to organize my iPod music library...and next week's payday!!! Hehehe!!! Life is good! Thanks God!!!!

Of all the Arguments...!@$%#

2008-01-24T16:10:00.000+08:00

My beau and I had an argument about...guess what? SEX...It goes like this...Hes not used to having a very liberated guy (me) in bed.I couldnt help it...I know a lot and the reason why im doing that is because I love him and it cant get any appreciative than that...I felt insulted when he told me hes not used to in hardcore tumble session...What the Fuck?!...
I still love him dont get me wrong...but I think I owe it to myself to get hurt...He told me his past affairs,I took it all in.I think I deserve better that that comment...especially if my main motive is to please him.
As of the moment...out of being hurt,I vowed never to touch him again...Hes still wooing me as of the moment.Huh!!! I deserve more...

PS The guy really loves me...(I think)

Love would never do without you

2008-01-22T12:34:00.000+08:00

my favorite version of janet jackson.s love would never do w/out you...done ofcourse by macy gray...enjoy the groove!

The 2nd Asian Heatwave...

2008-01-22T12:28:00.001+08:00

Remember That I once featured a batch of looking asians?...heres the 2nd batch!!! enjoy !!!!

The Coffe Prince Theme song

2008-01-18T11:23:00.000+08:00

Remember when Euchan(the lead female) was hugged by that handsome manager(Gong Yoo) in one balcony scene? remember that bittersweet love song playing in the background?...here it is finally along with the translation...Enjoy!!!

White Love Story ~ As One

At first I hadn't known
I saw that light in your eyes
Why is it mezmerizing like that
When will I want these words to be buried?
I know a little bit in my mind
The first story had no enemies but
You know this place like I do
One day I will wander and challenge it

I might fall asleep without you
It hurts too much
when you embraced me
For this emotions wanted you to know
That theres more to me than what you see
That I am just a girl who loves you
I will hold dear in my heart
Until the day when my love breathes in you

You stop like this
Always to me
It is cruelly only against you
This is a day to see and a day to laugh

You know this place like I do
One day I will wander and challenge it

I might fall asleep without you
It hurts too much
when you embraced me
For this emotions wanted you to know
That theres more to me than what you see
That I am just a girl who loves you
I will hold dear in my heart
Until the day when my love breathes in you

Now I don't cry for you
You are by my side
I am grateful like this even though I lacked some things
The future does a favor for you

Gong Yoo

2008-01-11T15:24:00.000+08:00

I never got addicted to korean stars...not until I laid eyes on Gong Yoo!!!

I was blown away...I have a dvd of the coffee prince and damn...He's the epitome of eery gay guy's man...Well o me at least...I love his smile,his eyes...the emotions and th body...to die for!!!

Ive got some pics to share with you guys...damn...I cant get over him!
somebody doused with caramel macchiato!!! hahahaha!

Getting hitched again...(gasp!)

2008-01-11T14:38:00.000+08:00

I met someone recntly( its dec 28 to date) and we clicked...Theres something special about this guy and Im really hoping itll be him...I think its a good thing to start the new year with seriousness on emotional part...dont you think?

Anyhow,the relationship has been going ok so far but the jist is hes awaiting for some job in canada...I know this is sad but we decided to enjoy the time together...He believs that we will survive coz itll be for just a year.Being a veteran of failed relationships,I know better but Im keeping my fingers crossed...

So there...New year...New dear...Hope ever after is justaround the corner(sigh*)

another encounter...

2007-12-25T20:36:00.000+08:00

I had my recent encounter last night...with a friend I have been texting for sometime now and well ended up liking and courting me.We planned to meet but what we ended up was even more than were expecting.we went to sogo guadalupe and fucked the night out and i went straight to my shift!talked about christmas present...! hehehe.Any how it was fun while it lasted.He really had a huge dick...The guy is 5'11 and really knows how to move with my hips....I thrust..he grinds...damn long and hard strokes...He came while shoving his fat cock inside me...It was my first time to come and spurt while being fucked in return.whew!!! merry christmas!!! hehehe

HUBAD! a strip tease guide to men

2007-12-21T19:22:00.000+08:00

I recently purchased a copy of this vcd and boy! it was worth it...In your face seduction as its best.Nothing got me hard than this film...In the subtle seduction category.Truth be told, I still masturbate while watching his film in my room.I sooo love the gyrating guys here! John Tanada is awesome but take note(pun intended!) of the other guys as well...The first episode got me hard andmade me exploded with the bulges rubbing against each other!..For Php 199,this is a good buy!

Hey...im changing...

2007-12-20T15:57:00.000+08:00

I overhauled my get up...discarded all the japanese inspired harajuku style fashion and currently sporting a preppy look...I know its not a standout anymore but I have my ways to compensate it..hehehe

Even the hair has changed...Im now sporting the edge up black hair...gone re the dys when I was blond...hehehe.but the contact lenses stays...Im wearing green.good combination for a chinito eyes.

I might say that I look better...more raw and a bit sexier...with black hair,goatee and chinito green eyes...things would really start happening...fill you up later sweetie...mwah!

In the right place...at the right time

2007-12-16T11:20:00.000+08:00

I never thought thatI'll have a double luck last friday...I went to robinson's mall to get something but what I got was more than I asked for...DAMN!!! I sucked a guy in a cr (for the nth time) and almost got fucked by a handsome guy my age in the CR just in the 2nd floor...hehehe

It happened around 2 pm and I went there just to pee and do my facial cleaning.I was alone when almost by a second, Ariel(the first guy) got inside and went to the urinal...and started stroking!....I looked at him and vice versa.It took one lick in the lips and my decency melted.Out came the Sexy freak I was vehemently keeping inside for decency purposes...I sucked him dry!The good part is He moaned and pumped my lips as well...he came into my mouth...and later I found oput that he is a SEMINARIAN...NICE.

I told him I need a release and then He held my hand and led me into one of the cubicles and sucked the life out of me.It took five deep slurps and I exploded...and he drank my juice.Dammit.

Hurriedly \i fixed myself and went outside..he followed.we talked and then I realized I need to pee...I told him that |'ll be going at the 2nd floor cr to freshen up...When I went up there...There was this guy named joseph(the 2nd guy)who was standing for the longest time in the urinal.He is tall and a bit buff...i Almost ignored him if he didnt showed me his raging cock and smiled sweetly...I told him im spent and went out after washing my face .He followed me out with ariel trailing behind us.Ariel bid us goodbye.And joseph and I suprisingly talked.And he made sense(i just hope hes not pulling my leg though)
He wanted and though straight,was willing to try a same sex relationship.He told me that he had enought of bullshitting with girls and wanna try his luck in the m2m genre.I in return informed him that if ever,I wouldnt pay him because money is not synonymous with relationship...and by gad's name,HE AGREED!!! he told me as long as he will feel that somebody cares thats ok.(SHALLOW HUH...but it got into me)
He even went with me to the bus station and waited for my bus.He got my number and promised to keep intouch.I know this is sooo absurd but the guy;s willing to know me...atleast thats what he told me.Oh well,...nevertheless I went home happy...and thirstquenched. hehehe

P.S. The guy is texting...and I think
He really wants me to get to know him more.

My Pick Upper....

2007-12-09T09:09:00.000+08:00

I love this song!!! this is my current pick upper song...a nice to start the day...smiling and grooving...even better when played before going to parties to set the gimmick mode in you...Hell yeah! this song rocks!!!!

clock strikes upon the hour.
And the sun begins to fade.
Still enough time to figure out,
How to chase my blues away.

I've done alright up till now.
It's the light of day that shows me how.
And when the night falls...
The loneliness calls.

Oh I wanna dance with somebody,
I wanna feel the heat with somebody.
Yeah I wanna dance with somebody,
With somebody who loves me.
Oh I wanna dance with somebody,
I wanna feel the heat with somebody.
Yeah I wanna dance with somebody,
With somebody who loves me.

I've been in love,
And lost my senses,
Spinning through the town.
Sooner or later the fever ends,
And I wind up feeling down.

I need a man who'll take a chance,
On a love that burns hot enough to last.
So when the night falls,
my lonely heart calls.

Oh I wanna dance with somebody,
I wanna feel the heat with somebody.
Yeah I wanna dance with somebody,
With somebody who loves me.
Oh I wanna dance with somebody,
I wanna feel the heat.
Yeah I wanna dance with somebody,
With somebody who loves me.
(Somebody who somebody who)somebody who loves me,
(Somebody who somebody who)to hold me in his arms.
I need a man who'll take a chance,
on a love that burns hot enough to last.
So when the night falls,
my lonely heart calls.

Oh I wanna dance with somebody,
I wanna feel the heat with somebody.
Yeah I wanna dance with somebody,
With somebody who loves me.
Oh I wanna dance with somebody,
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah baby I wanna dance with somebody,
With somebody who loves me.
Yeah,
Don’t you wanna dance with me baby?
Don’t you wanna dance with me boy?
Don’t you wanna dance with me baby?

With somebody who loves me,

don't you wanna dance
say you wanna dance
don't you wanna dance... x3
uh-huh
with somebody who loves me

Its Pinoy's turn this time....

2007-12-05T11:03:00.000+08:00

feast yourself on the drool worthy filipino hunks I spotted on the net...and they arent even in the movie industry...this goes to show that hunkiness is abundant in filipinos! sulong mga guerilla!!!

Teasers

2007-12-05T10:42:00.000+08:00

...And you thought youre in one on one cam to cam...hehehe

Upgrade

2007-12-02T09:12:00.000+08:00

I recently upgraded my phone from the humble T610 to whopping P900i.Its always been the phone Im obsessing about.Im the most happiest guy last thursday coz that the time I bought my baby...(I dont care if theres coup d etat) coz I have the phone of my dreams...One thing Ive noticed tho...eventhough its user friendly still,the program is a bit complicated than your usual Nokia phones..medyo ang sakit sa bangs!hehehe...I had to learn how to navigate the screen and the features.Light side? its like having a computer at the palm of your hands...I feel Omnipotent in some way...hehehe....I love this phone!Super!!!

That one song that struck my heart...

2007-11-28T17:23:00.000+08:00

This reminds me of that one very special person who held my heart for four months yet it seemed like he had me for eternity...you will always be the person whom I gave my very all...

MAGBABALIK

wala nang dating pagtingin
sawa na ba saking lambing
wala ka namang dahilan
bakit bigla na lang nang iwan
hindi na alam ang gagawin
upang ika'y magbalik sakin
ginawa ko naman ang lahat
bakit bigla na lang naghanap

REFRAIN:
hindi magbabago
pagmamahal sa iyo
sana'y pakinggan mo
ang awit ng pusong ito

CHORUS:
tulad ng mundong hindi
tumitigil sa pag-ikot
pag-ibig di mapapagod
tulad ng ilog na hindi
tumitigil sa pag-agos
pag-ibig di matatapos

II.(repeat CP.)
alaala'y bumabalik
mga panahong nasasabik
sukdulang mukha mo ay
laging na sa panaginip

bakit biglang pinagpalit
pagsasamaha'y tila nawaglit
ang dating walang haggan
nagkaroon ng katapusan

Humility....

2007-11-21T15:24:00.000+08:00

This is not an inspiring note but more likely the opposite.Im talkin about two acquaintances who sadly doesnt know what this word means...

Lets call them kyemerlyn and chuvaloo.

SCENE 1: Kyemerlyn couldve have been the friend that youve always wanted except that He feels like hes all that.Hes my wavemate in the office and feels like he all that.Hes a member of the choir and whenever we have a practice,He insisted on going soprano...SOPRANO!!! and using hes falsetto voice.It just frustrates me a lot because he sounds like hes croaking and hes out of tune!!! Having trained for years in DLSU Chorale,it offends my musical sensibilities...most colleages say that he wants to overpower my voice,I have nothing against that provided that he can produce the same quality that I can produce-thats less work for me.But he couldnt and it just frustrates all of us. Another is this,one of the HR people is shall we say above average in looks..and hes hell bent in getting him! talk about guts!!! he discloses to me that they text each other regularly and he went with him in their house for over night(gasp!)True enough that they texted each other regularly.I saw it in his phone...the usual I love you,mwah mwah on the phone but being a PRO in cell romance,Im thinking...is he using a different persona on the phone? is kyemerlyn pretending to be someone and hitting that HR guy in the phone.I saw a text that made me think..this is the text of the HR guy " tayo na ba?diba dapat pag usapan natin ito ng personal?"- meaning....its just on the phone.Oh hell whatever...He never got the HR guy and hes trying to show everyone that hes heartbroken...That makes me cringe! "ate,uminom ka na ba ng kape?wala kang nerbyos ah..."

SCENE2 : Chuvaloo is smart..no doubt but hes takin it to new heights.To the point that everybody is getting a lil bit annoyed.It makes us think that hes soo in a hurry to make himself known on the floor.Playing a know-it-all.I hate people like that.Its ok to have confidence.Being a show off is another story...He makin everything like a competition...sure we have to prove ourselves but not in the way that pisses everyone.We are professionals here and not some students competing to be in dean's list.it kinda gets into my system .

So there...two people...same case...resolution?its up to them...meanwhile,I gotta stay sassy and keep it sweet and real.

PS kyemerlyn looks like MR BEAN and chuvaloo looks like a steroidal Helen Gamboa.Both are GAY.One is a cross dresser.Kaya mo yun??? hehehe

Calendar Boys

2007-11-18T11:14:00.000+08:00

This is an archived picture of the calendar boys back in 2005 who well,definitely agreed to pose naked.The firs guy from the left side is Josh Ivan Morales who is currently a member of a Provoq men.The 2nd from left is from G. Pilipinas...not all the boys were lucky tho in penetrating(pun intented) the show business.Some just faded into oblivion...sigh*

Naked and Sacred

2007-11-18T11:09:00.000+08:00

A sexy song...A definite favorite.With lyrics to blow your thoughts...it was a remix tho...enjoy the groove

When I’m with you,
I feel naked and sacred.
And this world can be so cold.
I wanna hold you naked
and sacred till I grow old.

What does love mean?
Can love last?
I ask myself these questions,
haunted by the past.
I’ve walked these city streets.
I’ve known victories and defeat.
Searching, hoping, just barely coping.
Baby I wanna be good for you.
I wanna be true.
Don’t know how I'd live with myself,
if I ever hurt you.

When I’m with you,
I feel naked and sacred.
And this world can be so cold.
I wanna hold you naked
and sacred till I grow old.

Since I met you.
My life’s changed.
I feel like a bird,
that’s been let out of it’s cage.
Baby I wanna be good for you,
I wanna be true.
Don’t know how I'd live with myself,
if I ever hurt you.

When I’m with you,
I feel naked and sacred.
And this world can be so cold.
I wanna hold you naked
and sacred till I grow old.

Naked and sacred. Naked and…

Your hands feeling me.
Your love's feeling me.
When you go away...
Your heart's still in me…

Naked and sacred
And this world can be so cold.
I wanna hold you naked
and sacred till I grow old.

When I’m with you,
I feel naked and sacred.
Next to your heart I’ll hold.
I wanna hold you naked
and sacred till I grow old.

When I’m with you,
I feel naked and sacred.
And this world can be so cold.
I wanna hold you naked
and sacred till I grow old

First time in Tondo

2007-11-18T10:37:00.000+08:00

I went to Tondo with my colleages.Its one of my friend's house.The whole experience was ok but it humbled me.Dont get me wrong.Gen's place is ok but you see,some of the surroundings arent that picture perfect.It made me thankful for our present status and continued health.Realy,you couldnt asked for more.
I bought a bag and its pretty beauiful..kinda like a fashion statement and substance rolled into one.a chi chi gucci bag that can carry most of my stuff.One downside though... miscalculated my budget.hehe.Gotta use my plastic now.Anyhow,it was good...the experience that is....theres goes another snippet in my life.hehehe.fill you in layyytttaaahhh!!!!

A hard days work...

2007-11-11T11:41:00.000+08:00

Who wouldnt wanna rest wih this jock after a hard day of exercising...?
I wouldnt mind...hehehe! enjoy!

Lovin the life

2007-11-11T10:46:00.000+08:00

Im suddenly hit with a deep gratefullness so here I am...thinking and thanking those people who came into my life which left me wiser...sometimes maimed(hahaha!) and undoubtly more positive and vibrant than my previous self.I'm so loving the life that I have now and Im really hanking God that He gave me a not so perfect life...why you might ask?...this is where I got stronger...wiser.I may not have the quinnessential gay life but hey...At least Im keeping it real,sweet and sassy! and that's the bold truth sweetie...hehehe!!!

Minsan Lang Kitang Iibigin

2007-11-11T10:13:00.000+08:00

This is one of my favorite choral masterpieces...I missed my choirmates in DLSU.We used to sing this...we sang it in Padova Italy..huhuhu! I miss the harmony...Anyhow,this is done by the world renowned Madrigal Singers.The song never fails to take my breath away.Its heavenly...almost dulcet angelic in harmony.It sings the promise of forever...which basically everyone is dreaming of...Enjoy the love...this time for keeps. =)

P.S. This is the one we sang in the general assembly

Once you go black....

2007-11-10T23:45:00.000+08:00

I find this black guy really sexy...damn those muscles and WTF!!! look at that cock! damn...If theres one black guy Im gonna have my ass fucked,It'll be him...damn...Im having a raging hard on right now...

GUESS WHO...?

2007-11-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

the mystery guy kinda looks familiar...well,this pic has been in the web for sometime now...nice cock tho...hehehe...he's related to Ethel Booba by the way...Enjoy!